| this is me |

You might say

"no you will never do that,

that's not you,

not who I know,

not who I thought you were"

and I will say "watch me".

~ Charlotte Eriksson

This is me
stepping out of my comfort zone
being vulnerable

being seen.

This is me
taking up space

claiming my life

living unapologetically

allowing myself to shine.

This is me
exploring my thoughts

listening to my desires

believing in my dreams.

This is me
embracing my light & my dark.

letting go of my old story

exposing my untamed heart.

This is me
opening to possibilities

saying yes to myself.

This is my becoming.

My word for the year is "becoming"...the process of coming to be.  I want to say that am not the person I was almost a year ago when I chose this word.  This is true in one sense, as I may appear different to people who know me. The real truth is I am more myself that I have ever been in my life.

Each day I am moving closer to who I truly am.  I started a daily ritual of feeling my essence.  Literally...feeling myself in my own skin, by witnessing the watcher and inviting her in.  Slowly but surely realizing that I am the watcher.  She is my true self - my soul, my essence, my divine being - the me that is, was and always will be.  I had forgotten her.  I attempted to forge this life on my own with my mind by trying so hard to figure it all out instead of seeking guidance from the voice of my soul.  Then suddenly, I was awoken to the truth even though I had heard it a million times - look inside, go within, what you seek is seeking you.

Each day I begin again.  I am choosing to surrender to this untamed woman and her wisdom.  I am letting go of my ideas of how it should be and allowing life to happen without attempting to control it.  I worry less and trust more.  I listen for those whispers of my truth and faithfully heed its advice.
I am ever-evolving into who I am now and now and now.
I am journeying back home to myself.

I am becoming free.